Veggie Vitamins!

Tonight, dinner was largely veggies. (Of course, some of those veggies were baked waffle fries, but hey - when you've got a craving...) I'm deliberately trying to stuff my diet with vitamins because this is a bit of an intense couple weeks. Being in a show takes a lot of energy and focus, and I want to make sure I'm on top of everything.

It's been a half-productive day. I managed to get a lot of correspondence off my desk/out of my inbox, but I still am struggling to like theory. Music theory should be a fun puzzle to me, but all I can think of is "I'd rather be learning the notes to this piece instead of parsing it into chords and Roman Numerals." Especially when it's Schubert. Roman numerals/key analysis is not easy in the ambiguous world of the nineteenth century German lieder. And, frankly, I find it a bit pointless.

If I've lost you with those last couple sentences, then you have a sense of what I feel like trying to get an analytical handle on this piece.

I think part of the difficulty is that my focus is shifting. I'm now trying to figure out next steps for next year, so a majority of my day centers around resume rewriting, cover letter crafting, and general job searching. Uncertainty has never been one of my favorite things, and I really want to know what's happening next. I want to have the plan laid out in numbered steps with dates and a nice little bar graph. Maybe a slide or two just for fun. More than that, I want to be happy with wherever I end up next year. So perhaps I just want to know that something will work out and that it will be good.

In the meantime, I'll keep packing the veggies and putting on the bustle for the hustle onstage. And savoring these last moments of performing here.

Tomorrow night is the first full-costume+makeup+hair dress rehearsal. Students from the school are invited to attend, so we'll have a "real" audience (rather than just other cast members). I'd best hit the hay so that I'll be able to pull off that German accent.

~Hope